I'm gonna try to be better. But I've said that before.
But I do want to try and blog more about Jesus and what he's been teaching.
It's been SO GOOD.
I'll also try to blog more stories about life. Because usually they're weird.
And it's very cathartic for me to get my weirdness out as much as possible.
And I feel like its good for all you normal people too.
For you to know its okay to be weird.
There's freedom in the weird. in the nerdy. in the awkward.
BUT back to Jesus!
Oh man, He has me in such a sweet and simple state.
And I'm loving it.
I'll start with this quote that came from the daily devo Jesus Calling. It's a great little nugget/supplement to add to some daily Bible reading. But this one day, it was SO what I needed to hear.
"As you anticipate what is ahead of you, you forget that I am with you--now and always. Rehearsing your troubles results in experiencing them many times, whereas you are meant to go through them only when they actually occur. Do not multiply your suffering in this way! Instead, come to Me, and relax in My Peace. I will strengthen you and prepare you for this day, transforming your fear into confident trust."
I'm typically pretty good at putting up a front of being a happy-go-lucky person. Whenever I take those animal personality tests, I'm always the golden retriever. Not really cut out to be the intense lion or a type-a beaver. And I am that personality, not easily worked up, stressed or angered.
But I still, for years, have allowed anxieties and fears to creep into my life in an everyday manner. Fears about school, loans, singleness, looks, reputation, career, etc. And like the quote said, I take situations in my head and play them out in every scenario possible thinking what is gonna go wrong. Things that might not be happening for weeks, months, years. And I worry about them now. And allow that fear to paralyze me and dictate my actions. Dumb.
But thank goodness for Jesus. He has been teaching me that life is no where near as complicated as I have made it. That I need to be simply resting in his goodness, faithfulness, sweetness, his security and plan each day. Because worrying does nothing but increase those anxieties, fears, and doubts.
So that's where I've been. Spending time with Jesus every day, resting in his splendid and unchanging security, and when my fears come a-calling, I repeat a verse to myself or remind myself of Jesus's supremacy. And then those fears don't stand a chance! And I love it! And love Jesus all the more!! Ah, its a good spot to be in. And I know life won't always be this sweet, but even when life crumbles, Jesus is still at the foundation, and he can't be shaken! And I am so excited and thankful to be his!
And since no blog should be without some kind of picture, here's a few photos of what I've been doing in the kitchen..
Sausage, cheese, rice stuffed portobellos.
Thought I was ready for mushrooms.
No, they're still gross as when I was ten.
Stuffing was tasty though.
Homemade wheat bread.
Oh the humanity.